When will the day be?
I was away on duty for the special agent S that Friday. Was being assigned to carry the 7 hours assisant task at the Kem Teluk Sari, Mersing. That’s the reason why I couldn’t attend the FYA reunion dinner. Sorry mates, my apology. Catch up with you all on the next gathering nar…stop asking me about my wedding dates but started saving AngPau for me from today onwards.:p
The day in the Kem…with 430 trainers. It’s unbelievable to find that they are having a very good life in the Kem! They are scheduled to have 3 proper meals + 3 tea breaks in a day. Accommodation provided is at 3 star rating, without air-conditioning. Their core activities for the day is sing Negaraku, Marching then breakfast…follow by attending moral, religion classes and very minimum physical training. They are being paid for enjoying the everything in the camp. Good bargain though.
I was being invited…or so called sabo by the special agent S on the assigned task. The task given is as simple as ensuring all the technical equipment been located properly, directing the audience discipline, distributing the required handouts to the audience…etc. I was expected to carry out the duties during the Talk but ended-up performing the "clicking" action for the special agent on the presentation slides. Oh ya~ and also helping to carry her briefcase and serving her drinking water during the Talk. A simple job that bring me a few hundred bucks income. 
When will the day be…for me to stand up and speak in front of the big audience? Am so timid that becoming so self-conscious, so frightened, that I can’t think clearly, can’t concentrate, can’t remember what I had intended to say…so, when will the day be? I keep asking myself…reviewing the public speaking experience I have had in past…the maximum audience I have had is 50. The few minutes speech will cursed me to have not less than 24 hours preparation. I need to upgrade myself to be able to speak in front of the audience, a group of people of more than 100. I want to gain self-confidence, poise, and the ability to think on my feet. I want to get my thoughts together in logical order and I want to be able to say my say clearly and convincingly! But, again…when will the day be??!!
Be a great speaker will be my ultimate aim for 2008. I want to conquer my nervousness and be the speaker on the next Kem intake. Needed to push myself forward to overcome this fear. I don’t want to be a coward. But will preparing my ON Brand TTT sincerely and seriously for the coming months. Looking forward to be the ON Brand super-speaker. 
Please don’t approach me or Giant on the exact date of the BIG day. It will be a special date which we will announce merely and invite you to join us for celebration. Don’t wish to pressurize him by keep mentioning that we both get older…couples around us have their knots tied this year, next year…already gave birth their 2nd child in my age..bla bla~~~ These external factor have cursing him on hair lost + weight gaining !! Poor thing…how can he maintain his handsome look on the wedding album shooting? How lar~~ :S
So, when will the day be? ASK NO MORE. It’s got to follow with God blessings.
