My Millionaire Diary

Am disappointed. Am discouraged. Am demotivated. :S

Ended today with a very bad ending. Happen to be a tough one that I couldn’t take it. It indeed an experience am not expecting and be surprised. Sigh…

Are we really that bad? Ill-treaten you that causing so much of dissatisfaction and misunderstanding…By no mean, we are sincerely hoping a peaceful performing place, a quality working life that we could execute efficiency at work and spend more times with our love ones. Our objective is so simple as to ensure everyone get to achieve what they want in life while joining us as a team. By no mean, we have the intention to exclude anyone but welcome everyone as a team. Please do not get me wrong and give no chances for misunderstanding to rise among us.

A meaningful Theme for the month, addressing the complicated situation we have while challenges arose. Issues will remain unsolved if none of us wish to open ones mind to speak out the problems. I do hope that I was granted the intrinsic power of reading your mind, hence, to puzzle it with happy thoughts. A very wish that everyone of us would want to do for you.

" I never thought I could feel this way, and I’ve got to say that I just to get it, I don’t know where we went wrong, But the feeling gone, and I just can’t get it back "  — If you could read my mind

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就因为“技巧”让你对我大发脾气。是该怪大头在那边煽风点火吗？我只是一时口快，说错话。就让你那么在意！为了那两个字，被大头责备，就已经觉得很委屈。你还骂我不因该在你朋友面前批评你，让你难堪。说我应该小心说话。无心之谈，却造成那么大的反应和责备。很委屈…

我是错了，在你好朋友面前让你下不了台。讲话没有分寸。没有顾及你的颜面。可是我并没有任何恶意，更不是存心要让你丢脸。让你有酱不开心的encounter。我只能道歉。As I find you are very mean to what I have wrongly said during our conversation with Marcus. I sincerely make an apology to you. Please forgive me.

我应该不会买花讨你欢心，你就不用有任何期待了。也不会买99K金条给你，因为如果我有那么多钱买金条，也会买给mummy先。你如果要酱小气的话，你就自己生气够够了才来找我。我应该被判死刑，可是大头也活罪难逃。他如果没有在旁边加盐加醋，我想你也不会酱火大。害我整个晚上没睡好，起早八早还要爬起床写这封悔过书。想他现在也应该是在睡觉nor，捅了一箩子的误会，还想装没事，拍拍屁股走人。我如果被惩罚，大头也应该一起受罚。

你如果还酱火大的话，我就想办法ban掉那两个字。至少，我和大头都很乐意把那两个字从记忆里删除。从此，我们的字典里就找不到那两个字。Ok吗，大头？要不然我就去不成KL了。:S 你就帮帮忙讲几句好话nar…

反复听着周杰伦的-不能说的秘密。真的自叹不如！他怎么可以那么神奇？不明白，怎么能同时当导演，写故事，做主角。搞不懂的一部戏，很多的疑问，就如同看不懂的The Lake House酱。佩服。因为欣赏他的才华而折服。发财猪，都叫你为baby取名杰伦nor…:P

Ging King Gong Kong的声音是减半了。换来的是很不好听的钻洞声。OMG~ can anyone stop it!! 还有5个星期to completion. Argghhh…

很不喜欢conduct Compliance Briefing & TTT. 真的到了极点讨厌的程度。可是，那天和偶像的OnBrand Meeting让我彻底改变了。他真的很棒，打从心里的仰慕他。:D 真的希望有那么一天我也能和他一样受人敬仰。那时就有很多很多的两百千了！

Being OnBrand,也不是自己要的。虽然，很不情愿，非常不甘愿，但使命难违，也只有委屈求全。说实在的，也应该感到自豪，因为这是一个很好的表现的机会。能有那个黄金时段练练presentation skill。乘时机训练自己的胆量。就阿Q一点，为The Most Preferred Bank加点油吧~

乱七八糟的office,真的没有眼看。有点小失望，因为有几个害群之马，把office搞得乌烟瘴气。我真的只想保持中立，没有偏袒任何人，保住我的饭碗，早日坐上我的Executive宝座。很多事情不是我能做主的，我不是office的第二把交椅。我也有不能说的秘密。无奈 :S 期待雨过天晴的那一天…

It indeed a looking-forward month for August. Where, our neighbor busy preparing their NDP and when our Mr Boleh started recalling their citizens that had been placed all around the world - the importance of being Malaysia - BOLEH! Whoo…Besides, some eyes-catching news on the banned of Negaraku publishment at YouTube. Ain’t can’t find anything that inspire me of having the 50th celebration…but a long weekend that I can spend while doing something which I am enjoyed all the times :p - SHOPPING!!

STOP! STOP! STOP! Complaining me as being shopping-queen. Am not really that money-spender. Been treated every of my shopping trip as a journey, an explosure to new things that in marketers’ mind. Serious, am consider every of my shopping trip as an exercise to lose gain weight.

Went to Marina Bay last night for the Singapore Fireworks Celebrations 2007. Terribly congested all the ways from AMK to Marina Bay. Have to que-up while entering car-park, MRT, washroom…have to give extra patience in lining-up, waiting for food to be served, finding place to park the car, having a seat for dining. Really get understood why Singaporean can be that disciplined and so rebellious at both times.

The fireworks presentation claimed to be "one-of-a-kind" visual experience staged by worldclass producers from Europe and Asia. Beautiful fireworks accompanied with stirring music. Besides the spectacular pyromusicals fireworks that catch every of my attention, the most spotted one will go to the crowd. It was a terrific experience to see so many people gathered at the new floating stadium having the Mexican-wave. An additonal point to the organizer by allowing a very directive traffic-provider everywhere. It makes the event seem organized though it is congested. Good good!

Just make up a plan to KL for the Merdeka long weekend. Hehe…don’t disappointed by having change/postpone the trip hor.:S

原来，乱发脾气也有花收。:S

都怪我不好，是我不应该…

你让我好愧疚…(懂得以退为进这招了nor,赢了咯!)

下次不敢了。对不起。

P/S : 不要浪费钱送花，送我99K金条比较保值。:P

Hello Kitty is my favourite cartoon buddy. Lovin it as it is sweet and cute. Lovin it as I never get to keep a kitten as a pet.(Blaaa~ I don’t really want a kitten as a companion though.) It is my all times favourite, as it delighting my days with those sweet memories I have in past. .^_^. Am loving it~

谢谢，阿Jeff送给我的Kitty扑满。很可爱hor…

还有8婆送给我的Kitty饭盒。超喜欢ner…

谢谢体贴的仪权。很贴心的他，知道那天我生流汗王的气。传了酱的一个短讯给我：“好久没见到你了，好想你哦。”第一次看到这短讯还真莫名奇妙，直到他回了我：“高佬有，你也有，酱才公平”给了流汗王看，解释了一遍才明白…:p 身边多了酱的一个细心的朋友，真的不知道该谢天谢地吗…哈哈，奕莲，可以交换吗?! 哈哈…

My days with Bank is not an enjoyable stuff I have liked in past. :S Bank is undergoing a massive "make-over" and it needed everyone to bear with it for up to 6 weeks. Faint-ing…you really can’t imagined the tougher time we have, needed to work with datelines while they is a group of heavy-metal orchestra player downstair "king king kong kong" here and there…Head-aching. How lar how lar~~

心中的不确定，是自己想太多吧~ 时间会证明一切。我想，其中的变数很快就会揭晓了。是该听郭尚宫的话，继续在JB等待机会还是到KL发扬光大??!!…心理有许多的挣扎和取舍。若是一个月前要我做出考虑，我一定好不犹豫游选择KL，毕竟，那一直是我的人生目标啊。Sigh…总会劝人不该为了爱情放弃事业…最终，自己能不能放下，竟成了自己的负担。心好烦…好乱。

It is a song that I would like to dedicate to those who are in LOVE

Laugther in the Rain - Neil Sedaka

Strolling along country roads with my baby
It starts to rain, it begins to pour
Without an umbrella we’re soaked to the skin
I feel a shiver run up my spine
I feel the warmth of her hand in mine

Ooooo, I hear laughter in the rain
Walking hand in hand with the one I love
Ooooo, how I love the rainy days
And the happy way I feel inside
I feel the warmth of her hand in mine

I feel the warmth of her hand in mine
Ooooo, I hear laughter in the rain
Walking hand in hand with the one I love
Ooooo, how I love the rainy days
And the happy way I feel inside
Ooooh, I hear laughter in the rain
Walking hand in hand with the one I love
Ooooo, how I love the rainy days
And the happy way I feel inside

我不是他的100分情人。也没有很努力地去表现100分情人该做的。:S 太高难度了，我没有办法做到，也没有信心去挑战。

“ thinking of you these days…" 很刺痛的字眼。Argh…我就是无法接受。告诉自己别大惊小怪，可就是不知道为什么自己有酱大的反应。我是怎么啦?! 冥冥中让我看到的，是我所想象的吗? 好懊恼~ 很介意，可是就是不知道自己在介意什么！女人，你的名字叫麻烦。:S 没什么大不了的东西，却在那里穷紧张。我不确定，我有很多的不安。我很不踏实，我失去了安全感。

Life is never a simple management stuff that you can just studied and get passed. Sigh…

Passed my CFP Module 1, meaning that I have to follow up with the second module till I get to obtain the certified membership. Woohoo~ another achievement I have for the year! Omituofo…

现在的工作环境变得好玩了许多。因为，多了好多人，热闹了，也变杂了。原本的齐乐融融，变得有点苦涩。因为，不熟悉，所以有点陌生。也因为陌生，而变得拘谨了。:S

虽然，还是很想念面包超人，但也是不能改变的事实了。那个为我铺路的人，是好人吗?! 也只有走一步算一步了，死肉已躺在粘板上了，也只能等待那一片天了。会有那么一天吗?! 真的希望我没有把时间浪费在不属于自己的那片天。God bless…

太多的改变，造就能适时调整自己的我。我的下一步要走得更有自信。为我的退休计划加油吧~ 两百千!加油!加油!加油!